The last few weeks and days of pregnancy are interesting. The excitement, the nerves, the anticipation, it kind of feels like a ticking time bomb. I am trying to mentally prepare myself and also make sure my kids, dog and hubby are all organised for when it happens. But not knowing if it’s going to be tomorrow or another three weeks is such a head f*#k.
Today I am bang on 38 weeks pregnant with my third baby. I have to be honest, I hate the element of surprise and not knowing when this baby is going to come. My firstborn, Harper, was a week early. So when I was pregnant with number two everyone told me I would be early again… So when I had Paxton one day over my due date, I felt like I was three weeks overdue. Now with number three, I am trying my best to be patient and let things happen when they happen. But who am I kidding, I am totally ready and would love this baby to come early! I am a control freak and hate not having control over this. I am also a very impatient person in life and I just can’t wait to meet my baby boy.
In those last few weeks and days, people call and check-in and ask how you are feeling. It’s lovely and I honestly appreciate all the calls and messages. So how am I feeling? Well, to tell you the truth I’m feeling pretty good and bloody excited, but at the same time, I’m huge, puffy, hot and tired! Plus, as of today, my anxiety has really kicked in due to the fact that I know the pain of labour is only around the corner. In fact, if I’m honest, the thought of pushing another baby out of my vagina again is daunting. With my first labour I didn’t have an epidural but my second I did, so I am going into this one with a very open mind and am willing to wait and see how I go. I will try without an epi but if I need one, I will have one. In the end of the day, I also think my anxiety is around wanting to meet my baby and know he is healthy. Health and happiness of my family is the most important thing in life.
So to all those mamas out there counting down the days, ready to pop, please know that you are not alone!! It’s scary, it’s daunting. The anticipation is real! Especially to those first-time mamas, not knowing what to look for. The bloody show, the mucous plug, the dropping of your belly, those first few contractions, all those things you read about, it happens differently for everyone! You can jump up and down, drink raspberry leaf tea, eat spicy food, have acupuncture, have heaps of sex, but at the end of the day, your baby is going to come when he/she is ready!!
Good luck!! Wishing you all a safe and healthy delivery!!
This will probably be my last post until the baby comes (hopefully)! So I’ll see you on the flip side!