Let me start by saying that I know it is an absolute blessing that I am able to fall pregnant and I don’t for one second take that for granted.
I do, however, just want to let you guys know, the honest truth about my pregnancy. Some people feel fantastic when they are pregnant. They have no symptoms and they just breeze through it, loving life and looking fantastic. Unfortunately, that’s not me… that’s not me at all! My expectations versus the reality of it all were VERY different!
My whole life all I wanted was to be pregnant! I have always loved the look of pregnant women.
But for some reason I just don’t like the look of it on me. Not only do I feel huge, but the other 1000 annoying pregnancy symptoms make it so hard to enjoy the beauty of it.
I wish I loved being pregnant. But the truth is, I don’t.
I never quite feel like myself. Whether it be morning sickness, constant nausea and vomiting, or the never-ending reflux. The constant overheating and the pelvic pain, which feels like I have a bruised vagina. To my gigantic boobs which are so sensitive that my nipples hurt when the water hits them in the shower. The nights of insomnia, just lying there wide-eyed, the constant exhaustion, even if you have a good night sleep and you still wake up feeling tired. The fact that none of my clothes are fitting me anymore, the dizziness, the bad skin, the bleeding gums. The constant need to wee! (Let me tell you, as a dog walker – this is not an easy one!! I’ve had to make a few pit stops lately). The list goes on and on and I haven’t even hit the third trimester yet… Ahhh the third trimester… how I remember it so fondly… That feeling of being so heavy and swollen you can hardly move, yet having to chase after a toddler. Carrying them in and out of the cot, the car. Not being able to bend down to tie your own shoelaces, not being able to see your vagina or your feet, and the ever-expanding belly button – and yes since being pregnant, I learnt that mine has a freckle inside it! Waddling around, having zero energy. All the aches and pains that come with those final stages of growing. I can only imagine how tiring and challenging it will be with two young kids this time around. I know not everyone will agree with me on this one but I honestly find having a newborn, easier than being heavily pregnant with a toddler.
The one thing I do truly love about being pregnant is that feeling of movement inside. I LOVE IT! And I can’t get enough of it!
As I write this, bubs is kicking. It’s just the best. Knowing that this will most likely be my last pregnancy, I will definitely not take that for granted and will soak it up as much as I can. I still find it so surreal to think that there is a person growing inside me, and Jase and I made him!
For all you mamas who are feeling the same way as me… even though pregnancy may not look as good or feel as good as we’d hoped it to be, we just need to keep reminding ourselves of what a blessing it truly is!!
We are carrying and growing another human being inside us! It is absolutely worth the pain! It’s a miracle. As well as being a mum, pregnancy for me is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do but by far one of the greatest. Hence why I have gone back a third time.
I would love to hear from other mamas who are struggling through their pregnancies. Let’s all help each other get through it!
Keep going! You can do this!
PS. I am very excited that this article was featured on Kidspot!